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| Mark is looking for a friend that will know him inside and out, the good and the bad, the funny and the sad, and in the end still accepts him for who he is.
If interested, please feel free to contact him.
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| Fully rely on God.
Does that mean we can just sit back and wait for God or does it mean we continue to go do whatever we were doing and hope that this is what God approves? Havn't gone to church for a while. Now, I think it's partially just become a habit and its so hard to go back. I keep asking God to take me back, but doesn't seem like I have any extra motivation or desire to go back. So FROG = myself making the conscious decision to go back?
My friend told me a creepy theory the other day: Stronger Christians are given stronger demons. Do I have a strong demon? Am I just too weak now to fight and I've gone into this Christianity stupor? I don't think the battle's finished yet. Long way before the war's done.
Fighting strategy:
1) Renew QT with God
2) Go back to church
3) Develop a base of Christian brothers and sisters to support me.
FROG
I need to go back to church. I want to go back to church. This morning, everything was telling me to go back - myself, my mom, and yesterday's discussion with a friend. But just couldn't do it this morning. But I have next week, the week after... and really lots more sundays to keep trying.
Fight Fight Fight!
Finally be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
Ephesians 6:10-19
Now that I think about it, FROG is a joint effort of our own diligence and God's power. To fully rely on God is to put on the armor of God and rely on it win our battles and keep us on the path of righteousness.
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| I really love how Hotmail always greets me with "Hi Manhon!"
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| Its a constant battle everyone faces - a battle with school. It is the dragon we must slay to save the princess, its the Red Sea we have to cross to enter the promise land, its the last obstacle we need to overcome to reach our future. Yes, school is a magnificent foe who's destruction yields invaluable rewards. And sad to say, school is winning right now.
In Elementary school - There was barely any homework and I was free to pursue my interests. The battles were won effortlessly.
In Secondary school - School has evolved into something more powerful, with newer weapons like essays and the ultimate Provincial exams. It was tougher, but I still managed to pull through while maintaining my integrity as a student with a social life.
University - This is where the battle truly beings. School has finally stripped of its taunting appearance and reared its great ugly head, throwing everything its got at me. I, armed with nothing by my intellect and experience turn to face this new form of danger.
First Year - Science One. I faced off against some of the most incoherent professors and formulas. I was pushed down into the quicksand of studying as I struggled to understand the material. But, I refused to give way as I pulled myself out of academic hermit-hood and still went out for dinners and parties. I managed to win this battle and celebrated the victory at Aji Taro.
Second Year - Entered into a new battle arena at BCIT. Here school is taunting me again, putting me into a all so familiar arena that resembled high-school. It tried to get my guard down, and it succeeded. I started to get over confident and slacked off school work. But when finals came, I quickly came to my senses and after a few nights of cramming, I managed to pull off another victory with an A as my trophy.
Third Year - School took on a new guise of honesty. It doesn't have much tricks left, so it confronts me openly with barrages of labs and lecture assignments. At first I dodged the attacks, resolving them as efficiently as I could. I thought that was the worse of it and I retaliated by flaunting through parties, dinners over the weekend, and the occasional bubble tea. But little did I know it was spinning a trap for me, a trap that I fell into unknowningly while I was still arrogantly enjoying me social life. I didn't notice until it was too late. It had me trapped where it wanted me - in the middle of a pile of unfinished reports, assignments, and the imminent finals. Ahh arrogance is flaw of any brave warrior. I must now use all my intelligence, efficient finger typing strength, and page flipping techniques to try and get myself out of this trap.The outcome seems pretty bleak, but its not over until I say its over. Stay tuned to see who emerges victorious.
November 24, 08 - dealt a 67% for chem midterm. School is winning
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| Recently,
I've been having more and more vivid dreams with people that I know in them. Nothing bad happens, so don't worry. But they're really interesting, and sometimes I think my life in the dreams seem a lot more interesting. In one of them, I got to make the clouds in the Super Mario for Super Nintendo in chem class. That was just weird, but entertaining.
And speaking of dreams, I really wish I could go somewhere else and start fresh, like California. It'd be so awesome to just leave the expectations and prejudices and build a new identity. I just feel like I'm at the age now where everything's been set, my life, and who I am. Not enough time to go explore the world and to build a future as well. I could go to another school, or start a new program. But then I'd be what, 30, and just start my career? I don't think that'd be conducive to starting a family. So much to think about. Maybe I just need to loosen up my buttons, and let life run its course. Its time - IKEEEEEE
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